Life recently has been taken up with a not-too heavy workload, but ticking along nicely. A couple of logos, a theatre poster and a few rough sketches that I hope will develop into fully-fledged jobs. I have not done any Rainbow Orchid recently, and a surprising number of reasons contribute to this, if I'm honest. Actually, it might be interesting to look at those reasons...
i) I've already mentioned the pain in my right arm, and while drawing seemed okay, I was worried about it, and wanted to use it as little as possible. I have been using the mouse with my left hand for about a month now, and I think I can feel some improvement. I've also done a fair amount of work-drawing with no problems, it's mouse micro-movements that bring on the twinges.
ii) Editing that film of me drawing has put me off slightly as I realised how dull the actual process of drawing really is. This may be more from my perspective, as having gone through the laborious process of creating those drawings, I then had to go through it all several times again as I edited the film and watched it through two or three times while doing so. Of course, what's missing from the film is the internal dialogue, involving mind, hand and eye, that confronts the challenge of getting what is in your mind out into physical form onto paper, and that's the part that makes drawing interesting. But the film shows only the soulless version, and it's uninspiring.
iii) I've had a few negative things in my email inbox recently to do with webcomics and also self-published comics, and that's been eating at my brain a little. I really try and ignore the world of egotistical creators (and readers), but I'm only human, and it can get to me when I'm dragged into it. I'll keep battling away on that one! More often than not I prefer not being part of any kind of scene, and I'm in that frame of mind at the moment, but I mustn't forget all the good people who are involved too. I would just like to say I find it amazing that some authors/artists think they are owed a readership (and fame) as soon as they publish something, and even more amazing that they actually berate people for not genuflecting at their feet. You have to earn every reader with sweat and tears and be thankful for anything. Even your biggest fans will forget you once they put your comic back on the shelf. Please accept that, and just do your best*.
iv) I need to rewrite the next bit of script as the dialogue is bad.
v) I also found myself indulging in a strange feeling of glee at my diminishing daily stats for the webcomic (when not updating). But I also noticed some of those IP addresses that come back day after day to see if there's an update. I owe them a comic.
In other (non) news... last night I had a yoga session that felt as if I am getting back into it at last. I'm now trying to find a local karate club that will suit me too, but this is proving very hard. Ellie and I watched 'Downfall' last night. Not on the TV (where it was on Channel 4) but as our last of February's three rentals from Amazon. An utterly amazing film, more so for it being made by Germans, which did affect the way you watched and understood it. Is it wrong to feel a lump in your throat as Hitler says goodbye to his staff in the bunker before he shoots himself? It must be, it's Hitler! Perhaps it's locking on to anything human within him, but that quickly disappears when he talks about his proudest achievement being the wiping out of Jews in Germany - totally inhuman and impossible to relate to. It's amazing to think that the Nazis were in power within living memory - we all know people who were affected by those years. What a terrible and compelling story. Our other Feb films were '28 Days Later' (good) and 'Forty Year-Old Virgin' (alright, perhaps slightly more intelligent than I thought it was going to be, but still quite forgettable Hollywood fare).
I'll end there. Sorry for the little rant - I don't indulge that often, it's quite negative really.
* (Please don't email me to ask if I'm talking about you. No, I'm not talking about you. It's someone else...)